Sunday, July 25, 2010

Holding my breath

Andi and I went to church this morning for the first time in a long time. Since renting the lake cabin, we've spent nearly every weekend in Crosslake and I've missed the opportunity to spend Sunday mornings at our hometown church, singing songs and listening to God's message. It felt really good to be back today.

The pastor's message reminded us how God is always the same, never faltering during times of joy or times of sorrow. It always amazes me how God speaks to me there. Lately I've been all twitchy about how "good" things are in our lives. On Saturday, we'll celebrate our one year anniversary. The best year of my life lived beside my best friend, lover, soul mate. We both have good careers we enjoy and in fact, Andi's new business is thriving. Our families are healthy and happy. We're so, so lucky. And I know it. I'm very thankful for God's grace.

And yet ...

I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.  Isn't that horrible? I feel guilty for even letting these thoughts creep into my mind! I should be revealing in the happiness that is surrounding us at this very moment but lately all I can do is worry about how perfect everything is going. After listening to the pastor's message today, I know all I can do is love God and know he's here during times of strength and times of weakness. We can do anything with Him by our side. Please Lord keep us strong.

1 comment:

  1. Funny, our message yesterday at church was Why does God Allow Evil and Suffering.
    I guess the best thing I got out of it was that during those times you are drawn closer to God and God shows us His presence during those times as well.
    I wish I would've been at your service. ;)