Friday, October 30, 2009

Struggling to find a work/life balance

Six days you shall labor, but on the seventh day you shall rest;
even during the plowing season and harvest you must rest.
Exodus 34:21

I'm struggling. Finding it challenging to be the supportive wife I know I should be. It's no secret to Andi, or any of our friends or family for that matter, that I require quality time in my relationships. Remember the book The Five Love Languages? I use that book as an expression of my feelings. I feel my love tank emptying. QT has been a real challenge the last few weeks as Andi's started his new company. I knew this would happen going into it; how could it not when he (and 2 other people) are building a company from the ground up. Doing the work of 10-15 people. Selling business. Schmoozing clients. But I'm selfish in saying I want the best of both worlds. I want my husband to be challenged and driven professionally and I want my husband to be home at 5pm, making dinner and curling up on the couch watching good primetime tv.

I'm not saying my life isn't busy. And I'm definitely not sitting at home, waiting for him to walk in the door. I'm busy with my full-time job and working part-time at Let's Dish. Busy meeting girlfriends for happy hour and busy trying to keep our house clean so when my husband is home we can spend time together. I like my alone time too. But I miss my husband.

I'm just struggling. And getting myself all worked up, which is something I'm good at doing. And I'm pms-ing, which makes everything feel more EXTREME than it probably is in reality.

This week Andi was sick. And I know it was because he's working way too hard and not taking care of himself. I worry about him running himself down. A good work / life is healthy for everyone.

So, I'm prayfully working to support my husband. Asking God to help us balance work and life. Asking God to take care of Andi; to give him strength and wisdom to lead his company. Asking God for strength and patience as he achieves his dream.

Thanks for letting me vent. I needed it.

1 comment:

  1. Oh man. I am sorry. I kinda understand- Chris just stared a new job about a month ago- and he has been working 11-12 hour days. It has been really hard on me. I miss him too. Hopefully it will get better. I don't really have anything else to say- I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in your loneliness. = )